Est. 2012 · Specimen No. 2.2

The Museum of Vestigial Desire

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We are ahead of ourselves. Whereas common concern requires us to focus and deliver on promises, there is a neurotic urge to escape. Of course we never want to be who we are, where we are. 'The grass is greener on the other side,' doesn't capture the anxiety of the moment, the emotion of the moment, it just speaks of aspiration. It is a question of recursive multiplication, a virus, steam. Here the we is not the same as earlier (not just me in multiple projections), here the_we_ is the idea of the human. The idea of the human was a prescription, social and cultural that at best we have been able to rise up to occasionally over the years. It is not a description. We are not human by default. Or all the time either.

The tangential momentum of humanity's common motivation is to get organised and efficient to conserve effort and resources. And to be more elegant. The clean lines of the design I see in magazines tell me that that soon we are not going to be happy with out bodies. Bodies that sweat, need to shit and take a piss, bodies that complain though pain. We will need ones that behave like good computers, don't get heated on overuse, have no disease, are upgradable, don't smell, have accessories and are a mix of born in a cradle and bought from a shop. I am personally attached to the illusion of personality and personal identification. What will I do about it? When it is time to accept the evolution underway, resign to it, surrender, agree. I will think of the person as an instinct, as electricity, the systemic stimulus that lets gadgets breathe.

Into the fluctuation of the voltage of this electricity, I will see gradations and pencil in a full person. Do a naming ceremony afresh, call different ranges of fluctuations by different names of organs and erstwhile-body parts.

Our impatience with evolution to catch up with aspiration is a clash of two scales of time. One is granular, instinctive, throbbing, residing in the pulsating rhythms of our organic body. And the other is an urge to chase tangents.

After it is enough tags: desire vestigial fractal selves

More after. Spilling over. Landscapes of desires that have outlived their moment. I do not feel, but I know the decription. An afternoon spent practicing the act of handing over. So I exit now. I will measure the dimensions of my world. How do I hold things bigger than me in my mind? What are the limits? Lets see what we have here. We have concepts, we have strands of politics, we have yearning for fullness. A museum out of a slice of time. How does that work? Expansion. Generation. Multiplicat...

Toilets have no remorse tags: toilet body private/public hygiene

Toilets are the depositories of secrets. Private havens for cloaking our relationship with filth. Then again, how much can sophistication hide? Up until the moment we manage to leave our bodies behind and download our essence into the infrastructure, the primitive functioning of the body is part of our story. A part of our crime. As all stories are stories of crime. I often think of the architecture of toilets, how do they have us forget that we are in the public? Doors are not enough, false mem...

The mechanic tags: tale repair

The man who lived across the river, drove a small brown car. It was quite old, but was still quiet and efficient. One day this car broke down, and then this man had to walk everywhere. He didn't like using the train, or the bus. He just walked. The breakdown of the car was a pivotal moment in his life. For he was a mechanic and he owned a garage. When he walked, he walked between home and the garage and back. The breakdown of his car was a pivotal moment is his life because he could not fix it b...

Why do we need to shit? tags: toilet body

We need to shit because we can't come to terms with the crisis at our hands. The real crisis. With everything that we've got going on, we still need to eat to survive. We still need to follow an ancient set of rituals to prepare bits of plants and animals for eating. This cocktail of witchcraft, magic and science that we call cooking is still our only answer. The sun and its radioactive spillage is still the only way we survive. Photosynthesis in plants is the dynamo of all human activity. Anima...

The Political tags: sting venom depletion

A room is full of people, and you know they are there. But you pretend like you are talking to yourself, but we all know you are talking to presences and shadows. There is an inkling of comfort because it seems like they are all your friends, but your comfort at being a theatre of tumultuous performance is uncomfortable to us. That you learned to talk so well, prefacing six threads at the same time and proceeding at snail pace (talk about staying power!) is not a very comfortable fact. I would l...